My Blog on November 16, 2009

So here lately I have let my-self go. I have let events in my life run all over me without even a nudge to fight back. My days grew stressful and my moods were black and dual for a while. Finally I decided my life could not go on this way no longer...

After a long stress-free cruise with my one and only woman; Kira Leigh Neel. My mind somehow, sometime freed it-self from the hell it had been trapped in. Arriving to Kira's grandparents house was... um- soothing maybe? The area in which the grandparents housed was very simple, but not to plain to cause boredom; a rural area. The house had a wrap-around drive way, wooden-modern house, trees, wildlife in the distance, the most friendly neighbors... all of this somehow, sometime freed my mind from the hell it had gotten tangled into and around. I think god for the many experiences I have witnessed and for the few, but very kind and loving people associated with me and my life.

UPDATE!

My life at this point in time is REALLYYYY blurry; and I'm not to sure as to whats in store for my future.

The way things seem right now are very "dull" and "disfigured" I guess...

That is about all I really know what to say during this blog session.

(I'm still trying to do everything I can to stay as sane as possible)

Life Update

Here recently things have changed in my life. Yesterday, September 21, 2009, was me turning 18 years old as an independent individual.
Got kicked out of my house with all my clothes and a few belongings...
long road ahead.

I'm kinda glad to get away from my Grandma though.. I felt a huge stress
release lift from my shoulders. Although I'm here on Earth lost at the moment in time; to succeed and make the life the best it could possibly be, I will accomplish.

My Mission on Earth..

Throughout my life-time I have wanted to become many things many different times. Through my elementary school career I wanted to become an astronaut. Through my middle school years I thought I wanted to go to college to become a pediatrician. Now that I'm a senior in high school I have come to the decision of going to a community college to get my basics out of the way; after that I plan on attending KWC for Industrial Engineering. To follow my dreams of being successful in the economy, I plan on having an amazing wife and seven total wonderful young ones who I will teach and guide to success.

On a different note, I'm starving! Some New China sounds amazing right now! I think I'm gonna take kira and my-self to eat there after school...

Roller Coaster...

At this point in time in my life, I guess I could compare my life to a roller coaster. Here lately my life has had its ups and its downs; mostly downs. I'm trying to manage going to school and doing all my home work and studying hard to graduate, having an almost every-day job, taking care of my daughter and Grandmother and girlfriend and my-self, getting my license back, battling the courts for several reasons, and work off community service hours, etc...

It seems my mind is always overwhelmed with thoughts of my future.

9/3/09

Early in the morning i arose from my wrinkled, well-slept in bed to rain drops softly splatting the roof of my house. Soon i snapped from dreams to reality remembering all I had planned for Sept. 3, 2009...

After a very early, rainy, half asleep smoke outside my house, I hopped in the shower to wash the odor from my skin and hair, brushed my teeth, got dressed, ate breakfast and called my love with no response to my call. Soon after, I seen my phone's light engaged and heard the ringing of the old fashioned ring tone; what i heard on the other end of the phone was something i didn't want to hear; "i got pulled over doing 28mph in a school zone". My response consisted of words trying to calm a saddened soul and provide security in the situation. Arrived to school late and no Doughnut Thursday for Kira or me...

Everything is back on track to a normal, functional Thursday Sept. 3, 2009.

Group Pic/Lone Forest

In my group's picture I see a lone forest drowning in fog; little light beams seep through the rain clouds taking up most of the sky's scenery. Black splotches over lap the out lining of the trees; fog over taking nature's own off spring, leaving the forest lone and far off away from society. Still endures dry summers by sipping moisture from the shrouding fog.

LONE FOREST

Our group picture could symbolize life; saying so because the tree's peaks peak from the fog. Sometimes in life a person might feel like they're lost or barely afloat on the boat of life, with their head trying to be held high, but the presure almost, from life, will surround you making you feel down below the fog.